im back! hahaha.. i am being ASKED to update my blog.. so here i am! haha.. today went sch though it's wednesday.. 2 purpose for today is.. go for talk and do PP.. i onli did 1 though LOL.. =D no choice.. i am born to be lazy.. den went to level 7 class room to listen music, watch my movies, and play games wit iz..haha.. after tat went to makan at w4 which its my 2nd time in this year to have a proper meal there.. Ever since the start of this semester, i don realli have much friends and don ask me why coz i wouldn't tell u unless ur my buddies =D my life for this year onli got 1 word.. "SUCKS".. there's so mani things tat happen this year, almost all is something that is bad or has unpleasant memories. i don't like it at all but no choice, life goes on.. i did mani terrible things and UNTIL NOW, den i realised. one of e thing is.. my phone ring at 11.30pm ytd, since it's ast 12am so i said ytd, had a chat wit someone whom i've not contact for quite a while. Onli den did i realise i said things that cause misunderstandings between them. Had a big quarrel with someone who is veri veri close to me,who makes me unhappy for a few weeks. I used to think that i always handles things ver well, i guess i'm wrong. Mani things went wrong because of ME, i was the one who cause everything, misunderstanding, conflicts, etc. This is hell of a bad year for me. I used to put on a mask and face ppl, now i don't, rather be myself. Though everyday in sch, most of e time i am alone doing my own stuff, even if hungry go grab sth to eat will also be alone, e onli things that makes me happy is when i see my buddies and my family, even though i am like always a loner. And i begin to ask myself one question, everyone i know has their own specialise area, for e.g, studies, pool, b ball, skate, dance, piano, guitar etc, but i have NONE.. i don even know wat i am good at. This year has been a hell of a bad year for me, so mani things happened which make me felt so lost and confused. In mani ppl eyes, they think i'm strong and can handle everything, but those who realli know me will den understand who i m and what i m like. Nothing keeps me going in life now except FUN, thus i always tried to find fun in watever i do, this year i am totally not interested in anything except having fun. Take one step at a time, i just need a fresh beginning with everything. i m too tired to carry on, footsteps are so heavy till i feel like giving up in everything, everything just went wrong, even my studies, some ppl no matter how suay studies standard is still there.. For me, i can assure that soon i will drop out of my poly. ppl thought i am doing well in everything, that is just e surface. alright.. shouldn't blog anymore coz i have said wateva i wanna say. =D see yea peeps! =)
A New Life