Well, went for training at de coder cafe urh.. It don't seem difficult to rmb everything tat chen and yao taught me, but somehow, i really can't rmb wat they told me exactly, i can't even rmb where e things i put.. oh great.. My memory was fantastic last time, now it simply sucks.. last time i used to be confident in everything that i did.. but now.. i m beginning to doubt myself, my ability and capability. Sorry to disappoint u, chen and yao. >.<>.< sorry.. i promise i'll DO my BEST and not let u guys down AGAIN .. haix.. problems occur everytime i try to do sth right.. i realli love doing kitchen stuff! =( although having high expectation is what everyone wants, i doubt myself now if i can rmb everything that is taught.. Maybe i m nt used to ppl teaching me, maybe i am a person wit high pride, maybe i have attitude problem, maybe and maybe.. I've change ever since tat incident, my patientence, willingness to learn, everything abt me have change.. This is nt sth i want.. I've been feeling down almost every single moment, but who realli knows me tat well.. It hurts, hindering me wit from doing wat i like, i've been avoiding from reality.. perhaps i m nt tat strong which most of my frans seen me as.. my loneliness is understood by no one, yet it stain the whole grey sky.. trying to be brave and wants to carry on e life i used to have, but i realli can't..
A New Life