My life

2010-04-02T23:17:00.000+08:00

This yr has been a good or bad year? I don’t know, and what lies ahead of me seem so unclear. I am 21 already, and I supposed I am to think as much as the adults are. Much stuff has been running through my head ever since the start of this year, for e.g. If I will join police force instead of army, serving 5 yrs of service instead of 2, and what if I do not get into the army, well I guess that will be a disaster for me. What occupation will I be working as, what type of house am I going to live in the future, what type of car am I going to buy, how “rich” will I be? Most importantly, where will I be after I have served the service? >.<

This year will be the last year I am going to work in Sembawang Bottle Tree Village. It used to be fun ever since 1 yr ago? BUT many things have changed; both the environment and the people. I love my working place a lot as I know most of the people over there, but those people whom I have more to chat with are leaving one by one, every time they left. I really hate saying goodbye to them as I know I will never see them again, but however I am used to it now. Sometimes under certain circumstances, human beings are force to adapt to changes no matter how unwillingly they are, those who do not adapt to it will only suffer even more. This yr most of my buddies will be going into army, the work place where I intend to let all of us meet more often has become a deserted island.

At many times, maybe trying hard is not enough, doing hard is not enough, working hard and giving all the best is not enough. Maybe I am always I small kid in everyone eyes who only know how to play. Cheering people up USED to be my specialized area, but definitely not now or in the future. I always keep silence at times, its not because I am going against anyone, or I am an idiot who only knows how to PLAY, my mind is running through lots of stuff, maybe to many people I am not thinking deep enough, but I am me, as the saying goes, a leopard never changes its spot, I can try to be as perfect as possible, but sometimes maybe the root of something in a person is really difficult to change or maybe I should say it is impossible to change. We know clearly who affects who a lot and who doesn’t, needless to say that, but the person who hurts you is usually the one whom u cherish and treasure most. 不是你的勉强也没有用，是你的你想跑也跑不掉

2009-11-16T14:50:00.002+08:00

It's been so long dude.... so long......

i seriously hate school to core... Studying is just something which i want nothing to do with it after i get my dam diploma... I am simply not a cut out for academic... Suddenly feel so lost... emotions all stired up in me.... i always have something in mind.. This time... i lost it....

Hypocrites everywhere in school... Pretending to be the best, act like they know everything under the sun... "discussion" and "questions" on something that is ALREADY KNOWN... what's the point? just want to get a fucking dam A grade? Studying is to build high self-esteem in one life.. I feel that I am learning something which i most likely will not be using it in the workplace.. Mostly useless stufff... That's e 2 things that pissed me off.....

When will all this ever come to an end... Hypocrites everywhere, everyone is being sarcastic......what to do...... how to fight back....... confidence has been gone for years.... Idle my time all the way? or get on to do something right now..... I need finiancial knowledge, not school knowledge where i will still be working for other ppl in future.... Ppl will say, in order to understand finiancial knowledge, studying is important.... agree? To a certain extent of course.. ........................

Ok i am lost again.... even no foucs in writing blog... blood is boiling.... called chicken little just nw and tell him abt e medical check up, don know yy,, suddenly the blood just stop boiling.... After hang up and get back class,,back to pissed off mood.. Stared at a guy who tries to talk to my gf.. he say..... "sorry sorry, i asking questions only, don stare at me la".... seriously speaking.. i don give a dam.. just fuck off alright.... don even want to see his fucking face.. glib-tongued who only know how 2 please girls...

Random thing... Mood swing... life has been dam boring..... monday to friday schooling.. even wednesday, if nt got sth on to do... saturday and sunday working.... ytd one of the fran at work place ask me... wanglong... are u working 2 jobs? i say no... i am too busy with my sch and weekend job... den she said..... "aren;t u tired? u basically have no rest day at all".. i'm speechless after tat... Everyone has their own sorrows, those who appear to be smiling and laughing all e time usually is those who have tons of problems... Just tat they look things on a more positive side... People always say... "study hard, study is very important and must do very well in ur study, next time u will earn more".... It's so hard to reject that statement when one has to succeed in the shortest time, but how...... Recently de me, i have been very blur and confuse when i encounter difficulties and problems... WHY?! don ask me.... Used to be able to solve problems, no matter how difficult it is, and enjoy the sense of achievement after succeeding.. Right now.... i am only a lost kid on a street....

Every nght when i slp, i will look at the stars if there is, if nt just staring into the dark sky.... Thoughts running thru all e way, and i;ll just close my eyes gradually and BLUFFED myself that everything will be ok the next day i wake up,,,, that is definitely not how i deal with matters like these in e past...

2009-09-02T20:26:00.005+08:00

Gosh.. Spiders web all over my blog... Deserted Mansion blog...

Living in a whole new environment right now, with my job at UDDERS at lorong kilat, near bukitimah area.. Over there are very very rich people.. Luxury Terrace Houses, Posh Cars all over the road.. But the only car that catch my attention is Audi.. There is so many Audi Cars over there.. And you guess what, it's the latest Audi Car.. lol..

Every Morning take bus to work, get up at 6.45 although 9am start work.. Reason is..... FAR.. long distance travelling.. Inside bus 852, watching all the cars passing by, and people rushing for work.. Everyone is trying so hard to live here.. Busy city..

Listening to music every morning, old songs via new songs.. Memories flash back.. "Water" in my .......... Upon reaching the place, there were many food restaurant area all over.. Still need to walk about 5 mins to reach the work place..

People there were helpful and cheerful, but i remain silent throughout and just smile.. Reason? Don't ask me coz i don even't know it myself.. I have said less than 10 sentence since i started work.. not even when i am home..

A guy who used to work at udders with me show me around nearby the workplace today, getting me to familarise with the place so that ill feel better working over there.. It's sad to know that the supervisor whom i often used to work with have left.. Many people say that she dote on me a lot, i know that.. Miss the days we work together.. Hope your fine with ur life urh..

My working speed is really SLOW.. don know why.. can't be anymore enthu while working.. injuring myself is not something i wanted.. Guess it's becoz i'm tired out by the travelling which make me lose most concentration.. Production Line is quite boring though.. But who cares.. nobody even bother..

Anyway, i think my hairstyle or my looks is "outstanding" at the working area nearby, becoz so many keep staring and looking at me... Gosh... someone say i look too ah beng.. that's yy so many see coz tat area is rich people area.. LOL!

Leafs fallen onto the ground.. Things which i didn't notice in the past are now taken special attention by me.. Trees, flowers, cars, environment etc.. Trying to be my best.. but my body and heart is failing me.. That's life i guess.. Alright.. Shall upload photos next time in the next post..

2009-09-01T21:37:00.002+08:00

>.<

2009-09-01T21:37:00.001+08:00

2009-05-31T00:03:00.002+08:00

Sound of the ocean, nature of the world, waves rushing continuously. A person called for a gathering, hearts call for yourself to attend, but mind call you to stop. What you gonna do when a thousand of burden fall down upon you. Memories are past, creating history is now and future. Many treasure the past more than now, who doesn’t urh. When the surrounding changes as the time pass by, only then one will feel emptiness within themselves. One doesn’t have the power to change the past nor the future, but present. Burying yourself with school and work, sinking deep into the ocean with limited time, to keep one from thinking about anything. Misses, craving, has now became numb. Distance drifting away, drifting to the sea, and being pulled back slightly back to shore. Living a life of daily routine requires courage within your heart to move on. The aim, the goal, the promises, the forgotten path is past. Sorrows buried in the ground, fear buried underneath the mountain. if u wan others to respect u, u 1st have to learn to respect others, now i seriously think it is not true. A leopard never change its spot, know the true meaning behind it and u will realise it. Eagle hunts for its prey, once it eyes is targeted at prey, it will not let it go. Faults in one is not all, look at the positive instead of negative, nobody is perfect. Random post: A smile a day brightens up a person day, nice words makes a person day, caring makes a person day. Treasure the ones you love, opportunities do not just fall upon you, they are hard to come by. Once they passed, it will be a no return path, regret remorseful means nothing when that time comes, come to thinking about it, and ask yourself if you have ever tried your best to pursue your happiness and never let go, treasuring every single moment. Experience and knowledge is something which many lack of, respect those people who possess it, provided that they deserve the respect. As the saying goes, a picture means more than a thousand words, I say: An action means more than a thousand words. =) alright.. going sleep le.. Nights all! =D

2009-05-10T00:15:00.000+08:00

Ok guys.. I am back to blogging.. start with sch.. Dam sch.. hate sch.. coz I really sucks in sch.. ppl love comparing here and there, showing off the academic or results, PLEASE MAN, get some LIFE, sch doesn’t mean EVERYTHING.. -_-ll nth please me when I am in sch alright..so I shall not talk about it.. Let’s talk about something which makes my day.. haha.. =D I am back to F&B work! Dam.. although I said before I am not going do F&B again, but till now, I realise that I still love F&B the MOST! =D Ok.. 1st day of work, as usual… *BLUR* .. need to familiarise with the environment..i only make 1 fran at the work place, which the guy did not came today.. SIAN ar.. hahaha.. oh well.. today was dam packed with ppl as it is PUBLIC holiday..there wasn’t much part time staff there, but luckily I got experience OK! LOL! So can manage with the crowd.. hahaha.. This was wat happen when it is peak period, I turn around trying to look for ONE full time staff to take down orders, guess what.. there isn’t a single one around me LOL.. in the end I need to serve so many tables.. Luckily the customers understand my suituation thus they were quite friendly to me! Hahaha.. =D alright.. I am tired.. blog again some other time.. haha.. =D

2009-04-25T00:23:00.000+08:00

最近做什么事情都不顺利。。好烦啊。。什么也不想说了，只要一上课事事都不顺利

突然好想放慢脚步来过生活。。每天这样匆匆忙忙的，累死我了。。

今天去打pool 了。。好喜欢那里的环境还有播放的歌。。听了心情好一点。。

可是打着打着，又没有什么心情了。。

回想一下，时间过得好快，这么多年就这样过去了。。很多东西随着时间渐渐的消失了

已经不想认识新的朋友了。。每天都很烦。。只期待着放学。。

觉得人和奇怪，每次当我想把一件事情做得好，可是结果都是完全相反！气死我了！

虽然每天有点#%*！，可是还是保持微笑，告诉自己没有东西难不倒我的。。

因为不可以因为我而让周围人被我影响。。告诉自己，不开心的事会过去的。。

虽然不可以每天顺顺利利的，可是会雨过天晴！ =）加油旺龙！

2009-04-06T22:30:00.001+08:00

这几天好忙啊，可是在忙中寻找乐趣！哈哈。。darling 一下飞机的时候，我看到她了好开心啊。。她买了一个很可爱的bag.. 熊熊！第一天把东西都搬到她的家了，出动了家人！哈哈。很热情hor? 哈哈哈看到了她的家好不放心，因为好没有个人隐私啊。。可是现在好很多了。。 =）然后去买了风散，第二天去了IKEA 买些家具。。

Yishun 很多人吧，热闹，店又不会太远，看到你住的满意我也高兴哦。。 =）家的感觉。。。每一分钟每一秒我都好想你。。哎哟，我很会撒娇啊。。怎么会这样呢。。自己都没有发现啊。。哈哈哈。。好幸福啊。。

2009-03-11T12:22:00.001+08:00

· from John's “迎风飞扬”。

游戏规则：被点名者需要在自己BLOG上回答出前面BLOGGER提出来的所有问题的答案，并自己命题多出一题，然后把题目丢给另外五个人，并且到这些人的留言板上留下：“你被点名了。”这五个人需在自己的BLOG开头FROM处，注明是从哪一个BLOGGER那里传来的题目，然后写下答案，并另写一个问题，再去贴另外五个人。

1.最近在看的电视------------ 没时间看

2.最近在做的事------------- 上班，在家

3.最近在听的音乐----------— machhi！

4.最近在吃的东西------------ 我什么可以吃的都吃

5.最近在看的书-------------- 从来不看，报子算吗？

6.最近关心的话题------------ 几时可以拿工资

7.最近常去的地方------------ novena, 家

8.最近常想的异性------------ beryl!

9.最近最想做的事------------ 自己出去shopping!

10.最近身体情况------------- 非常好！

11.最近理财状况------------- 好

12.对朋友最想说的话--------- 你们怎么这么忙！

13.对自己最想说的话--------- 我要出人头地！

14.想一个减肥的良方--------- 运动

15.记忆中做的最疯狂的事------忘了

16.喜欢K歌的程度1~10依次递减--- 7

17.喜欢吃的食物------------- 只要吃的我都喜欢

18.最喜欢的水果------------- pear!

19.最怕什么----------------- 怕beryl 生气

20.现在最想做的事----------- 和berly 聊天

21.你最遗憾的一件事--------- 因为我，害到一个朋友没有办法进poly..

22.目标-------------------- 成为一个成功的企业家

23.现在最想买的东西--------- 衣服！

24.你最不能忍受另一半的性格特征-------- attitude

25.你最好朋友的名字--------- 育耀

26.你最想将来定居哪里-------这里

27.觉得自己最大的优点是什么------- 人太好了，所以经常被人欺。。

28.去年最快乐的是哪天-------- 九月三十号。。

29.今年最大的愿望是什么------ 可以每天和我爱的人在一起

30.迄今为止最难忘的一件事---- 在中学，当学生警察的日子

31.你最喜欢的季节是哪个------ 只要有太阳就可以了

32.为幸福下一个定义----------认真的上班，每天和心爱的人在一起，回到家可以自己下厨，做饭然后和她一起吃，最希望的是每天一张开眼睛可以看到爱人，一起出国玩

33.什么情况下分手了还能做朋友------- 不知道

34.“付出是为了收获”是否是一切交流的原则--- 不是全部。。

35. 最近在烦恼些什么--------- 怎样才能创造美好的将来

36. 最理想的对象是谁---------每个人都是独特的。。

37.情人节去哪玩儿了---------- 没有去那里，在家

38.你看到我点你的名后，会请我吃饭吗---- 噢噢，可以consider 一下。。哈哈

39.你觉得ANSON帅吗?-------- 是个人吗？没听过 =/

40.现在的你开心吗?----------- 现在不是很开心。。

41.你说，他为什么把密码换了？------- 因为被hack 了！

42.写下八个你理想伴侣的条件，并给出理由-------- 没有人是完美的。。所以没有这个必要回答。。

43.每天晚上关灯以后睡觉以前你都干嘛----- 躺在床上想人。。

44.早上醒来，在你脑海里，第一浮现的是什么?—刚刚做的梦

45.大家以后都想做什么???----- 做什么都好，只要开心就好。

46.你现在喜欢的人是谁-------- 你说呢？

47.你会一直爱下去么？------- 会。。 =）

48.你最喜欢哪一本书（或一部电影的）中的男女主角？---------- tom cruise!

49.都是用什么日子做密码？生日？电话？或者你自己知道的数字？----------- 恩，你都说了。=/

50.hoho~open一点的~你们爱的一发的时候都有上安全措施吗？----------- 噢噢？

51.你最讨厌哪种人？---------- 致以为是，目中无人。。

52.你真的就不能不那么喜欢suki吗－－－－谁来的啊？

53.你最喜欢哪个星座---------- 没有，只是看看而已。。

54.你喜欢吃鱼吗？------ ----- 还好，只要可以吃的，我都喜欢！

55.你相信你们的星座不合吗？------ 不相信。。

56.推荐一首你最喜欢的古典音乐------ cannon grove

57.你最不愿意放弃的是什么------ 爱情

58. 父母的意见在你作决定的时候有多大的影响力？

当作参考吧。。

59.你在谈恋爱的哪个阶段会考虑结婚呢？

想结就结。。

60. 我的问题，怎么这么多问题?

2009-03-01T02:09:00.001+08:00

今天是我做过不同的工作这么久以来最倒霉的一天！

今天我还以为是六点上班，结果谁知道，朋友sms 我，说是四点半上班！

我到那里的时候已经迟到了一个小时了。。晚餐都还没有吃就上班。。

我知道这次是我的错，把时间搞错了。。 supervisor 蛮生气的。。

到了晚上被叫去了解怎么会迟到，最后没有事了。。

可是！有一个人真是让我觉得恶心！好想臭骂她一顿。。

这个工作是她介绍我们进来的。。我很感谢她。。可是。。

今天她分明是在针对我！不管我做什么都错了。。

她做到一半的工作叫我接手，当时这么多人，我搞错了定单。。

结果从那个时候就开始一直说我。。然后不止一次，

一而三，三而在的针对我。。害我越做越没有心情。。

一肚子的气，可是还要对着客人微笑，招待他们。。

他你呐妈的。。我受够了！我恨不得拿了东西就走！

这也就算了。。那先男客人要女生来serve 他们。。

所以我都没有东西做。。就站在那里等其他的客人来。。

谁知道。。她又来惹我！我不做东西也有妨碍到她。。

说我在那里耍帅，我根本没有，我只是在等其他客人来而已。。

他妈的！她的朋友来了之后，就一直招待他们，一直在偷懒！

然后装到好像是我的上司一样。。一直说我做东西很慢！她才慢！

我做事情从来不会慢慢来，尤其是工作时候。。

很多东西要洗，可是他已经偷懒去了！plates 都不够了。。

晚上要关门的时候，整座大山的东西要洗。。都是我在洗。。

我已经用很快的速度在洗了，她那个妈了个B 的。。等我洗到完了才来。。

然后说了一句。。你怎么还是这么慢。。我受够了。。在也不同一个shift!

半夜要搭德士回家，那个色的司机，看到前面搭客是女生就去载他们。。

害我们得等多一辆。。今天。。一个字。。衰！还有。。气！。。

晚餐都还没有吃呢。。饿死我了。。我去睡觉了。。

2009-02-23T23:46:00.002+08:00

今天下午我领悟到了一件事。。做人不只要开心，而且还要为将来打算。。
我知道我平时一直嘻嘻哈哈的，所以难免会给人一种不可以依赖的感觉。。
我知道我平时什么都不说，会导致一些误会还是什么的。。因为我都不说。。
所以大多数应该是在猜我想什么吧。。其实。。我想的东西多了。。
虽然我这个鸡杂公每次说无聊的话，要不然就一直在闹。。可是。。
有一点可以保证的。。我该认真的时候就一定会认真。。哈哈。。
我还真的担心我一认真的话很多人都受不了。。娃哈哈。。
我觉得我长大了。。思想比以前mature 多了。。
只要我肯开口说话，大家才知道我在想些什么。。这样才能沟通的更好！嗯！
工作虽然辛苦，可是工作就是这样。。所以要坚持！我可以的！嗯！
我生日过了。。昨天眼睛没有办法睁开。。可是。。
看到了老婆发我的sms.. 我真的好开心，好感动。。
可能你不知道我有多么想你吧。。我还在想，好想快点回家上线。。
然后听你跟我说。。生日快乐。。我真的好开心！谢谢！
好爱你噢。。我在期待着你回来，然后一起过生日！呵呵。。。

2009-02-11T22:22:00.000+08:00

我又来了！嘿嘿。。老婆和我分享一首歌。。我觉得很好听啊。。 Your still the one..

啊。。今天搭地铁的时候，看到座位，让我想起，观察，瞄准，行动，抢座位，！哈哈哈！

每次搭地铁都会想到你。。以前是low.. 现在是high! 呵呵。。每次都有有趣的事情发生啊。

多到数不清了。。哈哈。。好多好多美好回忆啊。。我又去看了那个zoo 的blog.. 哈哈。。

每次看到那个blog, 我就好开心啊。一切在我的脑海里好清楚啊。两个人开开心心的去zoo!

啊。。看到了coconut.. 好想喝啊。。冰的！让你。。不冷的给我吧。哈哈哈。。

Seoul garden.. 啊。。好多吃的啊。。我这个猪猪可以吃了！我的最爱。。

看风云的卡通变成看搞笑片了。哈哈哈。。打pool.. 我们的必定活动啊。。哈哈

啊。对了。。最近听歌时候找到以前每次听machi 的歌。。哈哈。。好r&b 啊。。

街舞还是蛮好看的。。对了。。好想在去公园玩啊。。。。哈哈。。秋千！

还有。。跷跷板！好好玩啊。。我好像小孩子一样啊。。哈哈

2009-02-11T20:29:00.000+08:00

好久没有写了，每次写了，可是删了。。不知道要写些什么。。

今天原本是要出去的。。可是昨天发生了事了。。

我一点多还在用电脑。。最近失眠了。。哎哟。。

电话三根半夜响了。。医院打来了。。我想婆婆应该是出事了。。

然后就换了衣服，和我爸妈一起去医院看她。。情势紧急啊。。

全部人都下去了，只有孙子没有，我是唯一跑下去的。。

到了那里，医生说没有办法，一定要动手术。。可是机会渺茫。。

于是，我们就待在附近，等医生指示。。其实，昨天晚上和朋友去跑步了，

脚没有什么力了，太久没有跑步了。吃了一点点东西而已。。好饿，好累啊。

等着等着，医生说需要先做CT SCAN，可是还没动手术，婆婆就去世了。。

当时每个人的心情都好乱，眼中带着泪水。。以前，看着我外婆去世。。

现在看着我婆婆去世。。这就是人生，生老病死。。

当亲爱的人在身边一定要珍惜啊。。不要等到他们走了才后悔。。

今天早上睡了一下，一整天都没有睡到。。明天到星期天都很忙了。。

我爸爸很难过，可是当他想起还有我们三个儿子，和我妈。。他就坚强了。。

谢谢朋友的关怀，我没有事，不用担心我。。

好了，伤心过了就要振作起来。。继续生活啊。。

2009-01-30T11:11:00.002+08:00

嗄。。过了十六天了。。人变得懒散了。。每天只想呆在家里。。

昨天去了AMK HUB, 要找工作。。啊。。好难找啊。。

我一直在听歌，想起和你经常去那里玩。。打pool! K GOLD MEMBER! 哈哈

在那里有好多的FEEL 啊。。呵呵。。想到我们去玩跷跷板。。好好玩！

好想你噢。。我在等你回来。。然后我们去。。

SEOUL GARDEN! EAST COST PARK 起脚车，打pool! Coconut! 还有很多很多。.

啊。。在家无聊，出去无聊，好没有意义啊。。

在家听歌，看电视，做点运动，没了。。我在学做饭！哈哈哈

等你回来煮给你吃啊。。 =）嘿嘿。。

嗄。。一直想看赤壁2，要save money! 哈哈哈。。

看电视好了。。省钱啊。。嘿嘿。。

啊。无趣的人生啊。。

2009-01-16T10:27:00.002+08:00

always needed time on my own

I never thought I'd need you there when I cry

And the days feel like years when I'm alone

And the bed where you lie is made up on your side

When you walk away I count the steps that you take

Do you see how much I need you right now

When you're gone, The pieces of my heart are missing you

When you're gone, The face I came to know is missing too

When you're gone,The words I need to hear to always get me through the day

and make it ok, I miss you

I've never felt this way before,Everything that I do reminds me of you

And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor,And they smell just like you

I love the things that you do,When you walk away I count the steps that you take

Do you see how much I need you right now

We were made for each otherOut here foreverI know we were, yeahAll I ever wanted was for you to knowEverything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soulI can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me, yeah

(lalalalaalalala) So bored.. No Life urh. hahaha.. =)

2009-01-15T21:12:00.001+08:00

今天简直是糟透了。。根本没有心情去上课。。

本来班里还有四个男的，结果最后只剩下我一个男的。。靠！

今天原本想找工作，结果都没有了。。嗨。。霉运来了。。

神啊。。救救我。。不可以这样。。要努力！加油！

在学校，在家里，真的是无聊啊。。没事情做。。

我又来写博客了。。不知道要写些什么。。

明天是老人的课。。我要早一点走。。受不了他。。

还有。。无聊的一天又要开始了。。我一定要找到工作！

打发时间。。在这样下去我会疯的。。要加油！恩！ =）

2009-01-14T17:19:00.001+08:00

啊。。好久没有写了。。这个是为我的老婆写的。。

我darling 明天就要回国了。。虽然很舍不得。。可是

当我想到她可以和她的家人和朋友见面。。我就替她高兴。。

三个月的时间好久啊。。会是个漫长的日子。。

没有人陪我玩，陪我闹，陪我做这个，做那个。。

对了。。听你说你回去好玩的地方。。我好去啊。。

你说的那些玩的，吃的，我听了以后去好想去。。

我已经开始很想你了。。我会不习惯没有你在我身边

没有人再squeeze 我的脸了。。没有了邹皮狗。。

等你回来一定要闹我！哈哈！

今天的博客延迟了一天才写的。。

我今天的心情很乱。。当我送到机场的时候。。

我好伤心。。在你离开机场时候。。

看见你的背影。。我真的舍不得你离开。。

我已经习惯每天有你在我身边的日子。。

回想起从我们不认识，到认识在一起的时间。。

我知道你会看我的blog.. 记得tag 我哦。。=）

对了，麒麟千千万万一定要带在身上，或者是身边！=）

要每天按时吃饭，不要让胃痛再回来哦。。嘿嘿。。

三个月的时间，对我来说是很漫长的。。可是！

我会等darling 回来！=D 我在等你回来替我庆祝生日。。哈哈

你现在应该是在传换飞机了吧。。四个小时多应该到家了吧。。

嗨。。我现在有是自己一个人了。。孤单啊。。寂寞阿。。

我要去打工！有了钱之后，下次我就和你一起回去。。 =D

老婆。。我爱你。。我在这里等你回来哦。。

2008-12-15T18:25:00.003+08:00

今天睡了一天。。在家里没有什么好做的。。

早上十点多起来，看一看周围了又回去睡了。。

十一点半起来吃了早餐，上线到两点多，又没什么好做的，所以我又回去睡了。。

总觉得今天我好像猪一样，吃睡吃睡。。哈哈。。

五点多的时候我又做回我平时的运动。。感觉好像是回到了以前。。因为我已经好久没运动了。。

最近的天气好冷，连我这个每次觉得很热的人也觉得冷了。。

天气变凉了。。要好好照顾身子。。不要再生病了哦。。

我在期待着圣诞节的到来。。好希望自己像小孩子一样，可以得到很多礼物。。

我的心其实就像个小孩，每天只想快乐。。

可我也知道，这个世界并不是我想象的那样完美

希望可以看到圣诞老人。。看一看圣诞装饰。。

闪闪发亮的光。。让我觉得好温馨。。

好像到国外去玩。。因为新加坡真的是好闷。。

买买东西，看看风景，最重要的是吃当地食物！哈哈！

我真是个贪吃鬼。。哈哈。。我又累了，真是的。。好吧。。

不写了。。等一下！还有！。。。。宝贝。。爱你哦。。 =D

2008-12-11T22:08:00.002+08:00

Darling.. HOPE U RECOVER SOON.. =D Glad u like the "thing" i got for u.. haha.. Wish to see my healthy darling as soon as possible.. <3 you sweetheart..

2008-12-10T10:24:00.002+08:00

Has not really been blogging for quite some time.. very busy with so many things recently, ups and downs in this month.. Frans have been calling me to go out, but i realli has no mood.. i'm so sorry.. Usually when any of my frans have trouble, they will find me and i'll be their listening ear, and gave them advice on how to solve it. But whenever i face difficulty, i myself have no idea how to give advice to myself afterall.. The stronger a person is, the more the person will put on a strong font, will never admit weak in front of others.. Everybody got their own weak point, once the weak point is being hit, it will hurt to the core.. Happy go lucky on the surface, seens as a cheerful person who has no worries, deep down the ocean of heart, many things are running through.. Seem to be carefree, in actual fact how many people is really carefree.. Many things are understood, and the truth is called"hidden truth". Expressionless means the opposite.. Speechless means the opposite.. What is geniue is eyes, they wouldn't lie.. When you know the person inside and out, even if the person don't say anything, u will be able to know what the person is thinking and what the person is going to say or do next. I miss u guys.. Anyway, whatever is ahead of me.. i will face it with all my courage.. =D haha.. Jiayou! Self-motivation.. wahahaha..

2008-11-28T21:51:00.001+08:00

Forever takes me by a minute
While I'm here with you
I'm falling even more in love
With everything you do
Hold me in your arms
Look deep into my eyes
Don't turn away and let me go
I swear I'll never let you go
I'll always hold On TightI'll carry On Day And Night
I love you baby..

2008-11-28T21:41:00.001+08:00

The pearly treasures of the sea

The lights that spatter heaven above

More precious than these wonders areMy heart-of-hearts filled with your love.

The ocean's power, the heavenly sights

Cannot outweigh a love filled heart.

And sparkling stars or glowing pearls

Pale as love flashes, beams and darts.

So, little, youthful maiden come

Into my ample, feverish heart

For heaven and earth and sea and sky

Do melt as love hath melt my heart.

2008-11-24T09:20:00.003+08:00

There's a number of events happening.. =D ytd went to my sweetheart house.. i suddenly went earlier AGAIN! and gave her a shock.. haha.. coz she nvr prepare yet! in the end i waited half an hour for her.. But it is alright to wait for her as she is my gf! hahaha.. Den slack at her house and wait till around 4, den we went for swimming! hahaha.. 1st time swim in school swimming complex, somemore with YOU! so happy ! ytd i was happy all the way.. hahaha.. Ur head cannot go down water urh, in the end still go down.. haha.. i was either behind or beside u all the time.. basically, you swim 2 laps le i onli just warm up as i have been walking! .. Den we go back and rest.. we went to KFC and eat.. and i have came to a conclusion.. Eating Chicken can lead to many questions! hahahaha.. den she saw this lady eating so KNS, after which got this guy eating KNS also.. lick his fingers so LOUD AND FAST! DISGUSTING LO! hahahaha.. last wednesday went to eat seoul garden.. YUMMY! it's so nice.. i am easily satisfied by 3 things.. FOOD,FUN, and the people around me to be happy! =D Den we went to play pool as usual.. Now is last friday, went to play pool as usual.. But sth special happen.. on tat day when going back, we walk home, BUT, my aiai only walk 1/4 of the journey as i have to carry her ! HAHAHAH.. she keep laughing while on my back.. i love the way she laugh, looking at how happy she is.. will do anything just for her smile and laughter.. Everything is worth as long as it's for u darling.. I L Y.. =D hug hug!

2008-11-10T22:54:00.002+08:00

back to post.. =D so many memories recently, but let me recall some ba.. haha.. CoConut + yan wor= Free Facial! come now while stock last! hahaha.. Went to buy Bang Bing, can't find it at shopping centre so went out to find.. haha.. LUCKILY found it at a shop nearby.. Before we found Bang Bing, went to another shop and bought PuTong ice cream, alright, we were making funny noises until ppl walk past us keep us the look like" what the hell are this 2 person doing, making obscence sounds" hahahaha.. I DON CARE.. quoted from B____L.. =D hahaha.. Yesterday went to AMK play pool, after playing we went to nearby park, ok.. i did sth silly though LOL.. i ask you to wait there den i run up all the way to see what is up there, really a park! so i run down all e way, when i run up, almost slip! HAHAHHAA.. den we went to playground.. not exactly playground though haha.. play the thing can go up and down! don know call what! see saw not like see saw! HAHAHA.. but it's fun! long time nvr play, sth happen over there.. you and i were laughing like mad, "don say out better, later u kill me hahaha"... den you knock onto the "wall"? hahahaha.. in the park.. i can onli hear 1 thing.. SCREAM.. hahahaha.. Seeing u happy is e most important thing to me.. =) den we went back to play pool again.. this time she saw de member thing.. quite excited.. got 10% discount.. cool urh.. haaha.. now attracted to this word (DISCOUNT).. haha.. got this word.. = 4 eyes big big looking at the store liao! haha.. Alright.. i'll stop here, next time den carry on.. =D tc peeps! <3ssss..

2008-10-18T11:26:00.002+08:00

Make the best out of everyday.. See you smile, By My Side, this 2 songs are e best right now.. It's been a long time since i last blog.. haha.. Can see SOMEONE name start with T end with N de ren nagging le.. haha.. Last week went to meet my buddies at bugis, with my bao bei of coz.. Went to walk walk with them, then went to Fish And Co to have our dinner. Well, i wasnt able to order my favourite food as i had cough for 1 month! KAO! hahaha.. Hmm.. long time nvr blog can't realli rmb everything in details.. haha.. Anyway, it's glad to that my BUDDY Mr Yao seems to be back to his usual self.. smiling and laughing non- stop.. sot sot liao LOL.. jk jk.. i know u will kill me bro.. haha.. gd luck to u in ur pursuing of Happiness.. =) Majority of e days were spend with you.. now so used to seeing you everyday.. but these 2 days got work and wedding.. man.. SIAN.. Ytd went to k box after sch, finally ur dream has come true C : although my cough suddenly came back on e way to k box, due to tupid smell of other or or PPL.. zzzz.. didn't wanna take cab so can spend more time with u.. SAVE MONEY.. hahahaha.. on e way when send her back, there's this 4 gals keep looking, *faint*.. i thought is your fran, you thought is my fran.. BUT.. not both of our frans haha.. walk to traffic light there the still looking.. so uncomfortable.. feel like saying"can u gals plz siam?" hahaha.. alright.. lastly, though i can't realli do anything when u say tat u miss ur family and frans, but nevertheless i'll try and be wit u whenever i can to cheer u up.. okok! g2g for sch le! KNS! type wrong.. is WORK! kk! see yea ppl! <3sssss..>

2008-09-22T18:53:00.002+08:00

When u are being bullied by many ppl, yet no one stands up for u, tat's when u learn to protect urself.. Fight and defend for urself.. When u tried so hard for something to be fulfil or realised, in e end it turn out to be the opposite, there u are.. standing there.. yelling out the pain felt inside ur heart.. When ur commarades r not wit u side by side, tat's when ur fighting spirit is triggered out.. When u are doing ur best in sth u are good in, but ur fear appear, shivering all e way, but u manage to overcome ur fear.. e feeling cannot be describe.. Many people ignore the process, theyare onli concern about the outcome.. In actual fact, process is more important than outcome, whatever the outcome is, it's not realli important..

2008-09-19T22:30:00.002+08:00

a lot of uncertainties.. which is whyy till now, my troops remain unmoved.. NO action taken.. Seeing is not believing.. Feelings complicated.. tried to avoid it.. but can't escape from it.. Tried to accept Some___ else.. but mind still can't forget.. werid urh.. Everything seem so real, everything is fated, but we have nt taken any actions.. What are i afraid of? what am i worrying about? nobody to confide to now.. but i still got 1 person wit me.. sch is e onli motivation for me right now.. Now i begin to realise 1 thing.. though we r frans for yrs, but our thinking, and dreams are totally different.. feel so insignificant.. but wit others, i can feel my prescence.. Anyway, i have break e "wall" around me.. beginning to make more new frans which i refuse to do it in e past.. wat's interesting is that my fran actually thought i know e person for veri long, in actual fact, i just got to know e person! hahaha.. it's quite fun being wit my class ppl, coz most of e time i will be e 1 disturbing them! hahaha.. even the elites are disturb by me.. sense of achievement! HAHAHA.. recently activites are so packed that i hardly can rest at all.. it's like i have been out everyday, my bro always say this to me" a, u back le ar? time to check in!" kao.. nt i wan everyday go out ma, so many ppl booking LMAO.. Lastly, to someone ( i know u don have much frans, u can come and confide to me anytime =) , cheer up! becoz i have become optimistic person till so many ppl can stand me!) <3 my frans.. =)

2008-09-16T14:24:00.002+08:00

ok.. now i am in this silent class, where the faci ask many questions, and the class is so sleepy, welcome to cemetry! LMAO.. Today gonna end late coz this faci is too slow though he is a nice guy.. Well, recently got to know a close fran name ____ hahahahahah =p Seem to have a lot to chat, but ytd she say werid stuff which make me confuse LOL.. Fran.. think abt things in a more simple way urh.. =) complicated things make u blur only hahaha.. Like this class, but too quiet=boring.. Was hopping to know everyone as soon as possible so that the class will not be that quiet.. These few days nt enough slp which means on e edge of falling sick.. lol.. everyday also got activities! lucky i still young urh! LOL! i know so ppl got comment when i say this... hahhah.. This coming week will be working onli on sunday so i'll be able to go out and enjoy on friday le ! yay! Exercising and sports! <3ssssss.. Losing motivation and strengh, need more power! need recharge so i can GO GO GO! hahaha.. Men are falling, but some still stand tall, who's the best? are u up to the challenge? Waiting Waiting.. just wanna go out and chilled.. See ba.. passed 35 mins le still 1st team.. i can go on and on man lol.. Random questions.. whyy do ppl wanna be tgt? whyy can't they live alone? is there realli a need for relation? No idea dude.. lol.. =D

2008-09-09T14:34:00.005+08:00

back to post! 1st thing to NOTE to myself.. should i carry on working there or change? nt realli happy.. >.<>.< *faint*.. for the upcoming event is, tml go out wit chen to buy e BBQ food, thrusday HAVE FUN wit my classmates n school! LMAO! friday go sch, after which go work, den go chaet, till sunday morning den go back work.. Ni Lao Hiang, will be dam tiring la! awww... Let's talk sth abt my class.. Well, i think it's much more better than all my previous class, at first thought that they are veri dao one, but once get to know them, they are TALKATIVE too! hhahahaha.. make a number of new frans in class le, but still got some nvr get to know yet. I like e environment i am in right now, everything seems so peaceful as long as no "work".. =) although there's a no. of oversea student, but they are easy to get along and feels comfortable being wit them.. (lastly, i m falling into ____ trap unconciously) Man, i m blogging in meeting 3! 3 cheers! HAHHAH. kk.. g2g le. if not later kana DOWNGRADE.. hahaha..

i m turning from bad to worse

2008-09-01T13:42:00.002+08:00

Well, went for training at de coder cafe urh.. It don't seem difficult to rmb everything tat chen and yao taught me, but somehow, i really can't rmb wat they told me exactly, i can't even rmb where e things i put.. oh great.. My memory was fantastic last time, now it simply sucks.. last time i used to be confident in everything that i did.. but now.. i m beginning to doubt myself, my ability and capability. Sorry to disappoint u, chen and yao. >.<>.< sorry.. i promise i'll DO my BEST and not let u guys down AGAIN .. haix.. problems occur everytime i try to do sth right.. i realli love doing kitchen stuff! =( although having high expectation is what everyone wants, i doubt myself now if i can rmb everything that is taught.. Maybe i m nt used to ppl teaching me, maybe i am a person wit high pride, maybe i have attitude problem, maybe and maybe.. I've change ever since tat incident, my patientence, willingness to learn, everything abt me have change.. This is nt sth i want.. I've been feeling down almost every single moment, but who realli knows me tat well.. It hurts, hindering me wit from doing wat i like, i've been avoiding from reality.. perhaps i m nt tat strong which most of my frans seen me as.. my loneliness is understood by no one, yet it stain the whole grey sky.. trying to be brave and wants to carry on e life i used to have, but i realli can't..

i get to go out! FINALLY!

2008-08-30T00:25:00.002+08:00

hmmm.. today i went to TTSH to conduct an interview wit e person over there, well, before that JW said he will pei me go out, when i was prepared to go out le, he sms me say he last min can't go.. oh well can't blame u coz i last time also ps u before ma.. HAHHAA. so went to TTSH alone, e person was very friendly urh, thanks to him i get to finish my stuff quite fast. After tat went to meet iz, jacklin, jang quan, edwin, davin, wei jun. Long time nvr see them! hahaha. had a lot of fun of coz.. when WJ and me tag team disturb others hahaha.. den we went to party world, my voice was weird today so didn't realli wanna sing, den they keep saying want hear me sing lol. so i sing lo! i still tink i sound weird today! HAHAA.. after tat went to find someone! gues whose tat! she ask me go out play pool LOL! as usual urh, had lots of fun, just by sitting down there talking.. ok.. This is how it goes at the SubWay wehn we go have our dinner.. E person said" 12 inch or 6 inch", sth like tat, coz his Engliish dam weird, can;t realli hear wat he was saying so i say YA all e way.. ask me which veg i just anyhow point LOL! in e end.. u know what.. My sandwitch become so dam big and long! LOL! can't finish it of coz HAHHAAH.. i tink i can go join comedy show liao, my meimei keep laughing non stop today! LOL! even if i don say anything, she also laugh, man.. m i Mr Bean? LMAO! hahaha. C: hahaha.. but nvm urh.. see her laugh and so happy, i influnence by her also haha.. den i m so NICE to pei her go sebawang to her fran house.. haha.. so NICE of me right.. wahahhaa.. si bu yao lian hahahah.. we keep chatting until her bf come den i go back.. oh well.. initially i thought today just conduct interview and go home straight, in e end, ended wit so mani activities.. Maybe it;s becoz i have nt been going out for months, so today when i go out, i actually feel very happy wit a reason i don even know myself, mayb tat's wat happen to me if i stay at school, hospital and home for too long ba.. alright shall end here! tml still must go downtown.. kk.. see yea.. C:

2 tigers cannot live on e same mountain..

2008-08-15T23:29:00.002+08:00

slow down pace and take a look at ur surrounding.. u will realise how beautiful it is.. tired of internal struggles, tired of comparinf this and tha with others, tired of arguing wit others for e SAKE of winning.. isolation from outside world except friends world.. People are mean, nasty, so be it... let them be.. becoz they are not someone whom u are close with.. smile also got problem, happy also got problem.. oh well.. this world is turning upside down.. i've learn sth which keeps me going.. wouldn't be like last time.. now.. i'll just do wat i believe in.. and please don make assumptions about me coz u ARE NOT ME.. =) alright tat's abt all.. nth much to blog coz i rather keep it within me.. alright.. see yea..

2008-07-27T12:23:00.003+08:00

this will be my last post for this year.. It happen too sudden.. everything changes, used to be 5 of us, veri soon. will drop to 4 of us.. just when i needed someone realli badly, tat person didn;t came, and here i am all alone fighting a battle which has veri low possibility of winning.. but i wouldn't give up dad.. so DON"T u give up.. Everyday, i'm hiding my tears by smiling and laughing, it realli hurts inside.. Sorry to most of my buddies when i didnt explain the situation to u guys.. every time i explain, there will be tears in my eyes, i'll hold it back coz i don wanna affect u guys mood. Now all my buddies know the situation, thanks, yao, for explaining to them. Reality is always cruel, i regretted my action of spending $ without thinking, now when my family needed $ the most, i felt so useless becoz i can't help much.. now.. i don even dare to ask $ from my mum.. surviving on my savings alone.. Dad treat me so good, and everytime i take it for granted.. On e day he was admitted to hospital, he insist to send me to school FIRST becoz he do not wanna see us late. i said no, but he insisted on sending me to school.. His back hurts and he still send me to school before he went to hospital.. wat a bu xiao zi i am.. >.< everything he did, is all for us, he nvr spend $ buying the things he like, coz he save his $ all for us to spend on. When i heard the news abt his situation, my heart felt like a billon arrows went thru it, tears in my eyes but i didn't let it out as i know that if i do tat, my elder bro, younger bro and mum will definitely be affected by me. Life has change, everyone has been teling me to be strong, i m trying veri hard, i have no idea how long more i can last. I need a shoulder to lean on, i need sth to keep me going. Seriously speaking, i realli sucks in my studies now just tat i don dare tell my mum, i realli have no mood to study but my family and relatives keep telling me to do well in my poly. I m trying, but NOW i realli can;t focus in study! I will persevere, becoz e rason why i am in poly is becoz of my dad, he always wanted to see me be in poly although he know tat i m not good in academic, but he said to me tat, he wants to at least see me get a diploma. E diploma tat i will be getting is for YOU dad. i will not be lazy from now on. Every single moment he is worried that we 3 brothers will be led astray, we are all young adults dad, but we will pay special attention to younger bro who is now still immature. There's so mani things tat i MUST do, but i have so little time left, haix. When u know tat someone who is veri close to u will soon be taken away, u will lose interest in everything, and every single moment, even if u are smiling or laughing, the pain and sadness inside can nvr be taken away. Alright guys, thanks buddies for ur concern and support.. i'll hold on for as long as i can.. even till i collapsed. will not be blogging for a veri long period of time.. Thanks again..

2008-07-21T12:41:00.004+08:00

back to post.. this time is scold someone liao.. KNN! CCB! ni na bei! fuck u ci bai fuker! before going for CE talk, i went to the washroom.. den got tis cb guy, when i was abt to open e door, he push e door open till dam hard, KNS! my finger hurts like hell! he say sorry den smile at me.. at first i don care him le, but after about 10 seconds, my finger is bleeding like mad! si fuker.. next time i see u i make u bleed also.. dam pissed! tupid guy! zzzzz...

2008-07-21T08:52:00.001+08:00

it's a whole brand new morning to start with especially when u received a msg from ur long time fran! makes my day! and here i am in school again.. nth to do.. so BORED.. mondae blues.. haha.. everyone is so emo today.. including me of coz haha.. shall blog again next time BOO! =D

2008-07-20T23:13:00.002+08:00

Ppl think i m crazy when i say i wanna go States.. say for all u wan.. =D S'pore life doesn't suits me, e onli thing i can't let go here is family and my buddies.. i wanna experience outside life, coz ppl always say tat i've not seen outside life before and i am onli someone who stays a home, go sch, go out.. KNS man.. hahaha.. who will wan this kuku life.. hahaa.. i always get involved in things too late, thus i am going do sth tat gonna change everything.. of coz not do in here in s'pore.. onli crazy ppl will.. wat thing will cause impact and is something that veri few ppl dare to do? wait and see ba.. and when i get to the States. i m going to find all my pen pal!woohoo! misses them a lot man.. wanna meet up wit them.. especially someone whom i long to see! =) this world is veri practical.. without $, cannot enjoy life.. so 1st task.. get $ but not now.. now utmost can onli work LOL! wait till after NS and i get out of here man.. haha =) byeeeeee dudes!

2008-07-20T22:58:00.002+08:00

War War War.. declare War! today went out with chen to down town.. well don know whyy i today i m in good mood on SUNDAY, because i usually don go out on SUNDAY and SUNDAY always make me stay at home.. Today.. exception.. haha.. =D we went to e new shopping centre, don know called what kuku de haha.. well.. it has mani restaurants! cafes, arcarde, pool, bowling, k box etc. =) woohoo.. den went to play pool.. and.. e pool centre like onli got 10 tables?! LOL! and i bought the fried mushroom from taiwan xiao chi, yummy i hate mushroom but tat food was dam nice haha.. den went to bugis to find jac, nth much happen until at e train there, suddenly talk about pokemon LOL!!! den mi and jac keep making fun of chen as MEOW! HAHHAA.. he can't stand us of coz.. haha.. but no choice.. e way we talk is too funny! hahaha..and stupid kuku todae hit me so mani times, next time u die liao ok.. =D upcoming events! b day b day bday! ni lao hiang! so mani ppl b day! LOL! kiddin ppl! don whack wo.. =) i m looking forward to sth! guess wat's tat if u can..

sometimes a mistake can coz a person to lose a friendship.. life goes on as it nvr ends.. friendship is e onli thing i treasure.. all e best to my buddies in wateva u all do.. RIP R.K.O.. =)

2008-07-18T23:46:00.002+08:00

back here to post.. not realli in e mood though.. i think sth is wrong wit my dressing today coz i dress quite formal LOL.. so mani eyes were looking.. zzzz.. poke ur eyes out LOL =D today onli got 1 thing to say.. SUAY! 3 things that happen, 1st, i kana PS, 2nd, i still kana PS! 3rd my right leg muscle cramped AGAIN for e 2nd time when playing b ball.. lucky this time not tat serious man.. dam happy before my leg musle cramp coz mani goals were score by ME! LOL! den.. den.. i went sot sot.. got e gal in front of me, i don dare snatch e b ball, den e kuku vinz keep asking her to block me coz he know she will affect my movement and accuracy.. U WIN LIAO.. hahaha.. nt realli affected by her, BUT don know whyy keep missing at e back, sth is wrong wit tat spot or me LOL! it's dam sians coz iz need go back look after his dog since his dog is sick, den i need to go back home alone, before tat met Andrew in sch to pass him movies, had a chat wit him and i find it very relaxing talking to him, then he need rush off for meeting so left me alone AGAIN. i guess e link for my blog tat yao choose TOTALLY suits me.. haha.. LONELY LOL =D LAUGH! nvm abt all these suay stuff, i m happy as long as i can see my buddies and talk cock wit them C :

2008-07-17T00:37:00.002+08:00

im back! hahaha.. i am being ASKED to update my blog.. so here i am! haha.. today went sch though it's wednesday.. 2 purpose for today is.. go for talk and do PP.. i onli did 1 though LOL.. =D no choice.. i am born to be lazy.. den went to level 7 class room to listen music, watch my movies, and play games wit iz..haha.. after tat went to makan at w4 which its my 2nd time in this year to have a proper meal there.. Ever since the start of this semester, i don realli have much friends and don ask me why coz i wouldn't tell u unless ur my buddies =D my life for this year onli got 1 word.. "SUCKS".. there's so mani things tat happen this year, almost all is something that is bad or has unpleasant memories. i don't like it at all but no choice, life goes on.. i did mani terrible things and UNTIL NOW, den i realised. one of e thing is.. my phone ring at 11.30pm ytd, since it's ast 12am so i said ytd, had a chat wit someone whom i've not contact for quite a while. Onli den did i realise i said things that cause misunderstandings between them. Had a big quarrel with someone who is veri veri close to me,who makes me unhappy for a few weeks. I used to think that i always handles things ver well, i guess i'm wrong. Mani things went wrong because of ME, i was the one who cause everything, misunderstanding, conflicts, etc. This is hell of a bad year for me. I used to put on a mask and face ppl, now i don't, rather be myself. Though everyday in sch, most of e time i am alone doing my own stuff, even if hungry go grab sth to eat will also be alone, e onli things that makes me happy is when i see my buddies and my family, even though i am like always a loner. And i begin to ask myself one question, everyone i know has their own specialise area, for e.g, studies, pool, b ball, skate, dance, piano, guitar etc, but i have NONE.. i don even know wat i am good at. This year has been a hell of a bad year for me, so mani things happened which make me felt so lost and confused. In mani ppl eyes, they think i'm strong and can handle everything, but those who realli know me will den understand who i m and what i m like. Nothing keeps me going in life now except FUN, thus i always tried to find fun in watever i do, this year i am totally not interested in anything except having fun. Take one step at a time, i just need a fresh beginning with everything. i m too tired to carry on, footsteps are so heavy till i feel like giving up in everything, everything just went wrong, even my studies, some ppl no matter how suay studies standard is still there.. For me, i can assure that soon i will drop out of my poly. ppl thought i am doing well in everything, that is just e surface. alright.. shouldn't blog anymore coz i have said wateva i wanna say. =D see yea peeps! =)

2008-07-14T21:37:00.000+08:00

hello every1! ahaha =D i' m back! who misses me! =)